Update.
So summer is almost over and I feel like I should update this blog. Not much happened this summer. Same old. Same old. Spontaneous stuff here and there. June was pretty good to me. July was too. And august is here so fast! I didn’t get to dance much this summer like I wanted to but everything had to do with money which left me broke half the time D; yeah and I can’t sleep right now. It’s like 3:40 in the morning and I have to wake up in like 2 hours to get ready for this Link Crew stuff for school.. Blaaah.
118707811 - Distraction.
11217072111 - Missed out chance.
Almost slipped my mind
june 18, 2010
Me and him were supposed to hang out at his house, BUT he had to cancel because he said his boss called him to work. Me being the overanalyzer I am, I got all butthurt and thought way too much. but the hints were all there. Ever since our date he was texting less and we didn’t talk on the phone at night cause he was tired from work. But you see, he had no problem calling me days before and he worked. -___- I really wanted to see him too, that butthead. Anyways, instead I went to my friend’s surprise birthday bonfire. Later that night I just texted him, “Goodnight sweet dreams babe.” because we weren’t really texting. He replies with “Why?” then my friends take away my phone and text him cause I was being all sad. They replied, “because I’m going to stop talking to you now” then he replies with “wtf, aight then.” Then that was it, the relationship was basically over. In my head at the time, it was just a argument. Thinking back, I wish I didn’t listen to my friends. They were putting a whole hell of a lot of words in my head. We didn’t talk all weekend. He got his phone taken away so…
June 21, 2010
Then it was a Monday. Had a dance workshop. So went over my friends house after. I decided to star 68 his number and he picked up. I hung up right away. I was pissed. He had his phone And he didn’t bother on calling or textng me? Goes to show how much he cared right? I fell asleep and when I woke up, I got a text from him saying, “I forgot to tell you but I got my phone back.” Me being me, I let it go and say “it’s fine, wsup?”. A few minutes later I got a text. More specifically a break up text. At that moment I just started going all bad. I was crying, blaming and somewhat mad at the fact he broke up with me first because I had a feeling I should’ve broken up with him right when he picked up that phone call, but no. I wanted to be with him still. Stupid me.. The text basically said Blahblahblah you deserve better. Things went too fast. We should stay friends. You’ll find a better guy than me. Complete bullshit, I know. 2nd boyfriend in high school that I shouldn’t count. One week curse applied to this one too! 5 days about. But you can say it ended on the third day. June 16, 2010 - June 21, 2010 What basically ruined my summer though with thoughts of him all the damn time. I reallyhate this guy..
June 17, 2011
I went to the Rivercats game with my parents and little sister. It was Rivercats against Fresno Grizzlies. Basically Oakland A’s (Rivercats) against SF Giants (Grizzlies) cause they’re like associated with ‘em. After went to eat sushi. Then home. I went to the bathroom and looked at the mirror. I noticed half of my face is darker than the other half?! Yeaaah. Ok, I’m done.
Meant for June 16
June 16, 2010
Today was the day. My first date with him. Double date actually. I remember worrying about what I was going to wear. Was it good enough. Was it cute. I’ve never been on a date before. I was really nervous and for some reason my stomach is going in knots just writing about this. I went to my friends house because she was giving the ride there. All the while, when she was getting ready, all I could think about was, what was going to happen. I mean, I really liked this guy. And I guess I was infatuated with the fact that this guy may actually like me back.
First date - Bowling at Strikes. On our way there, my heart was beating so fast. My hands were getting all clammy and I couldn’t stop shaking. I was that nervous. When we got there, we went to the arcade and I saw him. Playing that basketball game with his friend. I quickly ran towards the bathroom. Babbling stuff like “oh my gosh”, “I’m actually here”, “He’s actually here..” I texted him we were here, yet me and my friend, or well I was hiding where the race car games were at. She just had to yell my name out so his friend heard and I ran to the bathroom. Yeah, I’m a dork. Go ahead and laugh. Someone knocked at the bathroom stall. I thought it was my friend but when I opened it, it was him. I remember his smile and how it made my heart just stop right then and there. We said our “hi’s” and hugged. I loved the way he smelled. Going out of the bathroom he turned around and said, “Someone is looking cute today.” I was happy dancing in my head.
I should’ve been less shy. Now that I think about it. I remember I was just so awkward. I remember looking at your phone and I went to your inbox and it was just full of my name. I remember when you pulled my chair to sit next to you, but I moved it back. I remember you beating me at bowling. I remember you playing with my hands when I teased you and didn’t let you hold them. I remember you always calling me a mean name and I’d call you one back. I remember..
I remember me and you sitting at that one race car game. I remember you put your arm around my shoulder as we just sat and talked there. I remember walking to the park. I remember the moment where we sat at that bench and you asked, “Will you be my girlfriend?” I remember jokingly saying no but then I said, “Of course I will”. I remember you gave me my first real kiss. I remember walking back with you, holding hands. I remember everything. Every little thing.
That day, those moments. You were my number 1. And it makes me cry just thinking about it.
June 16 could have been our 1 year anniversary.
June 14, 2011. Woke up to a good morning text from my MW. Took a shower. Ate spaghetti. Knobs came over around 1 ish. We just talked about rally stuff and what not. Searched on Youtube for things. Talked, caught up. Yeahyeahyeah. Theeeeen we decided we should go and email Brian Puspos. *drool. Hahah. Yeaaaah, if he comes through, I’m gonna be so esssited *fan girl screaaaaam :DDDDD
I wish their studio was over here DDDD;
June 13, 2011. Had dance workshops today. I was all ready to leave early to the workshops at 11:30 because I thought it started at twelve. Guess the fucking what? It started at 11? I know right. Communication got all jumbled up. So I was panicking for a good 10-20 minutes because it was already 11 and I haven’t even gotten ready yet. So showed up like 30 minutes late. Went into hiphop with JM, he’s shooo cute. Hahah. Got it down pretty fast ish? Then off to contemporary with JL and ET. It was really difficult. I was worn out because I haven’t danced in so long. It was fast too. I felt like I was going to faint. After showed the dances and what not. I felt pretty good by the end of it even though I was so hot and tired. After passed out the new times and schedules. Next workshop (July 11) is at Franklin. Yeahyeahyeah. After had a little Leadership Meeting and whatnot. Very productive. Then my house to go chill but made a stop at In-N-Out first. Piggie catch-up day. Very productive too! Hahah. I’ve been MIA from Facebook/Tumblr/Twitter. Well besides my Private Blog tumblr and this 365 tumblr because I need something to pass time. Hahah. Now, I’m just Youtubing. Texting my MW. Might watch some kdramas later? Idk. Whatevers.
I forgot to write about June 10 & 11.
On June 10 2009. It was a sad day. We were playing the question game. Our talk wasn’t the same as before. You asked me this one question. I forgot it. I kind of blocked it out of my mind or maybe I was so caught up. I’m trying to remember it, but it just isn’t coming to me. However, it was a “break up” type of question. I think it was worded something like “What would you do if I wanted to break up” or something like that. It all went downhill from there. The one thing that stuck with me though was that you told me you had a dream and my best friend popped into your dream and from then on she wouldn’t get out of your head. The thing that hurt the most was that I guess he was feeling that way for the last couple of days, yet we hung out that day and treated me like I was his only one on his mind. Guess not.. This went all down over AIM too. He wanted to call me, but I didn’t want to pick up my phone. He kept calling, my friends kept calling, my brother even picked up the phone to lend to me but I just threw the phone away. I was bawling like crazy and my heart was hurting like hell..
On June 11, 2009. It was official. We were over. We had a long talk on the phone. Obviously I was crying and supposedly he was hurting to because I was hurting. Complete bullshit. C’mon it’s your fault I was hurting you ass. But it’s okay, we’re friends I guess now. Anyways, he told me that he liked my best friend and wanted to be with her. Said his sorrys. Blahblahblah. I was mad at my best friend at the time because she hung out with him on this day. I got to admit though, this guy.. Even though I’d never think a guy would get in the way of my friendships it did. It’s never going to be the same between me and my friend.. Days passed and I don’t know what day it happened on, so I’ll just write in in the same blog. Me and this guy hung out and he said he still liked me and what not but he’s not going to do anything about it. Yeah, I know mixed signals much. So I got all happy again just to be disappointed.. We just never worked. He ended up with my best friend. Yeah it’s weird and people might think it’s “fucked up”. But, honestly at this point in my life. I don’t care about their relationship anymore. I learned I could do way better than him and I deserve much more. I’m happy for them two and may they be happy together..
June 6, 2011.
So, today my mom decided to wake me up at 11:30. She wanted to go check out Laguna Town Hall because my parents decided they wanted to throw me a Debut. Or 18th Birthday Party. We went and checked it out around 1. I noticed the place around it was a bit too familiar. It was near Strikes and a very nice park. I decided to check around the place, more specifically, like the fountain area and the park. Came across a familiar area and sat down for a bit and soaked everything in, but then my dad called me over because we were leaving. Yeah..
June 5-6?
Whatever date PND was last year. I think it was June 5 or 6th. Anyways, PND was where we kind of sort of met. Or more specifically where we caught each other’s eye. I remember looking at you through sunglasses so you couldn’t tell if I was looking at you or not. Also, when me and my friend tried taking a picture but getting you in your friend in the background. Creepers, I know. Hahahahaha.. yeah.
Then the day after PND. I reeaaally think it was June 6th. I went on MySpace and I see a friend request from you. Yeah, I got to admit. My was happy dancing like crazy. The story was you added my friend and then you saw a picture of me in her photo album and asked her who I was. She gave you my first and last name. Then you added me. Commented my picture. I wanted to talk to you, so I struck up a conversation and we went from there. Eventually, I gave you a gateway to ask me for my number and you took it. So we hopped off MySpace and you ended up texting me the rest of the night. I fell alseep on you on purpose so we could keep texting the very next day. That’s how it all started. Funny how things workout? I loved how spontaneously you popped up in my life..
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