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MARCH 11. Friday. Day 70. Black light Rally today. Yawmp. Day went pretty good. Flirting happened of course, during 3rd period while working on Rally. I don’t remember much. Except Black light went well. We got good feedback which always feels good. I played the shoe game and I’m still not sure if I got it right? After hung out outside of the dance room. Made it past the first cut for UR. Later came back to hang out with Anjan, BJ, Nick, Harry, Joseph and EB. EB made me cry. He got all butthurt about something then he blurted out to me why I even like -, and told me that - came up to him one day and said “Aye, should I just mess with Sammy?” Hella hurt right? Then I got super pissed off and like ignoring EB. He kept trying to talk to me, but I was just mad. I already felt tears, but I was holding it back. Then I walked away and EB was like why am I being like that and stuff. Then I told him how I’m hella hurt. I was broken from summer and being played by the whole Matt thing, and then - comes along and he made me happier and when I started to grow feelings for this guy I found out he’s just messing with me?! Ugh, I was so pissed and started crying. EB was like I should like guys that actually like you back. I was crying though? CRYING?! What the heck, why?..
MARCH 12. Saturday. Day 71. Prom Day. Got up at like 9. Took a shower. Day started off eh. My dad was in a bad mood so made me -___-‘. Then got nails done with Anjan at National Nails by Taco Bell. Everyone and their moms were there. After went home and started getting ready. Chrissie came over to get ready at my house. Then the boys showed up at the same time. I’m hella awkward.. We did the corsage and boutonniere exchange. Then we went to school to find out that the camera was broken but we paid ahead of time so we wouldn’t have to wait in line. Then picked up Anjan and we went to Red Robins to eat. Then showed up to prom and hour late but its aights. Prom in my opinion was okay. Felt like a homecoming but worse. Wasn’t pretty bright and everything. Hahah. I don’t like having dates though. Feels too.. weird and suffocating in a way cause you have to be with them all the time. Haha. Ended the night good. Went to In-N-Out and home. Too grown to party, haha. Kidding. But I get to sleepy to stay up late.
MARCH 13. Sunday. Day 72. IDK. Homework day?
MARCH 14. MONDAY. DAY 73. School, ugh. Slow day. Leadership meeting. Learned Destiny’s and Mine, Zach and Knoble’s choreography. Flirting again. We were in the back while learning choreography and just talking. He said he moved into his new house but he’s going to stay at Sheldon til the school year ends because someone is going to miss him. That “someone” he was referring to was me. I try ignoring him but it’s really difficult when he talks to you. Like he asked me if I was okay and I wasn’t. But I just said I was tired. It’s whatevers. Yup
MARCH 15. TUESDAY. DAY 74. Learned Natalee and Destini’s audition and Michael’s audition in class. Was in the back again. And he talked to me again. Flirting again. I let feelings show again.. -__- Knoble caught us flirting and EB did too. When walking to class EB was calling me a hypocrite. But it wasn’t my fault, I wasn’t flirting. Blah. After school went to tutoring because I didn’t feel like standing out in the rain. Didn’t do Destiny’s. Instead had an “IM” convo on Microsoft Word with Destini, Knoble and EB. We were all talking about me and - and how we flirt but I deny. Currently I’m winning. Knoble and me got closer. We are building a friendship. Hahah. He told me stuff bout -and I told him stuff about -. Now Destini and Knoble are currently tallying how many times me and - flirt with each other. -___- haha.
MARCH 16. WEDNESDAY. DAY 75. Zach turns 18 today. In class gave him his hat and sang happy birthday outta key. I tried avoiding flirting as best as I can. But - took the candy out of the birthday hat, forcing me to react in trying to get it from him.. Then we worked on message and he was sitting on the floor and we had to me so he put out his arm for me to pick him up, I ended up dragging him. Knoble and Destini saw. Haha. Then Multicultural Practice was after school. Destini told me I’ll probably get more tallies during practice. And guess what, I did? He kept poking me, I took a bite from his sandwich, during collab we had to hold hands to make a circle and all of a sudden someone grabs my hand and surprise surprise it was him. We stood there for a while just holding hands.. To be so honest, my stomach flipped during that moment. Destini and Knoble saw. To tally up the day, it was like 12 I think? Geez, not that bad right? Right?!
MARCH 17. THURSDAY. DAY 76. Denny’s Birthday. Kiara and Felesia, me, - and - all taught our audition pieces today. I don’t want to do K & F’s piece but Hobs is starting to get mad and I felt bad that not a lot of people are doing it. During their teaching, I told - I wasn’t auditioning for their dance. Usual flirting I guess? When I taught, apparently - was flirting with me. After school was multi-practice. Same old same old. Just doing it in costume though. Everyones saying that I’ll probably move on to -’s friend when - leaves. That is not true. I don’t think so.. I can’t really say though. Things happen and the future always changes. After practice went to watch the volleyball game. But left to wait by the gym to get picked up. Caught up with PIC friends and whatnot. Then home and the usual homework and whatnot.
MARCH 18. FRIDAY. DAY 77. It’s Friday, Friday. Gotta get down on Friday. Multicultural day. Got to school at 7. Was late. Changed in the corner and Hobs took a picture as proof. Haha. I was shoo tired. Caught up with AJ’s life. Um, multi went well. Me, Jenny and Anjan were narrating the band’s music cause it sounded like a disney soundtrack of Mulan. \/\/ was prettaaay cute, if I must say so. EB caught me staring. Haha. After the first show, wore Knobizzles coat, but then I tried giving it back but then - grabbed it and covered me with it instead. He asked if he did good and I replied with, “Oh, I saw you mess up.” and then went on with the slight flirting. Then he said I saw you laughing during the show and I said it was cause we were narrating band and it sounded like Mulan. In my head, I was like.. so you were looking at me? Haha. whatevers. Then during the next show, I caught - and - staring at me during band and they were laughing. During 3rd period it was just like chill time. This Justin boy talked mess about UR through twitter. Such a douchebag. Then I laid down and did some homework on the floor. Knoble came and lied down near me and we talked about how many tallies I got so far in the day. Then Zach comes and lies between us, (which wasn’t enough room to make him actually lie on the ground so he was slightly on top of my left side) Then he went and looked through my bag which was on my right side so he ended up leaving his right arm on top of me. And we were just laying there. It was kind of weird in a way, but whatevers. Hobbs ended up telling me to bring the books back to the detention room. I told Knoble to come but he said he didn’t wanna but then I asked him if he could get my umbrella then. Then - asks where I’m going and if I wanted him to walk with me. I simply replied with, “Doesn’t matter, if you want to?” He ended up coming and Knoble the cockblock he is ends up coming too! Haha, gosh Knoble. We ended up walking there for nothing cause the door wasn’t open. I ended up seeing Bonnie on the way and wanted to bring the books to her, so dropped off Knoble and - to the dance room, but - ended up staying with me and carrying the books while I hold the umbrella. We just talked about tonight and whatnot. Not much. I told Destini about how many tallys I have now and then - and Knoble come over and - asks what she was tallying for. Destini made and excuse and yeah. Close call. Hahah. Night performance then came. Kiana ended up convincing me to do a prelim with her in the middle. I was super nervous like shaking and I couldn’t breathe right. Ugh, so mad that I did bad, but glad I took a risk. Yaknow? Fuuuuck ittttt. Jenny and Anjan ended up coming over and we just talked cause the internet was down. Jenny ended up leaving and Anjan sleptover. Yoooop!
MARCH 19. SATURDAY. DAY 78. Woke up. Ate Pizza. Watched TV. Jamba Juice. Anjan sleeping. Lazy day. Watching Love and Other Drugs.
