On June 10 2009. It was a sad day. We were playing the question game. Our talk wasn’t the same as before. You asked me this one question. I forgot it. I kind of blocked it out of my mind or maybe I was so caught up. I’m trying to remember it, but it just isn’t coming to me. However, it was a “break up” type of question. I think it was worded something like “What would you do if I wanted to break up” or something like that. It all went downhill from there. The one thing that stuck with me though was that you told me you had a dream and my best friend popped into your dream and from then on she wouldn’t get out of your head. The thing that hurt the most was that I guess he was feeling that way for the last couple of days, yet we hung out that day and treated me like I was his only one on his mind. Guess not.. This went all down over AIM too. He wanted to call me, but I didn’t want to pick up my phone. He kept calling, my friends kept calling, my brother even picked up the phone to lend to me but I just threw the phone away. I was bawling like crazy and my heart was hurting like hell..
On June 11, 2009. It was official. We were over. We had a long talk on the phone. Obviously I was crying and supposedly he was hurting to because I was hurting. Complete bullshit. C’mon it’s your fault I was hurting you ass. But it’s okay, we’re friends I guess now. Anyways, he told me that he liked my best friend and wanted to be with her. Said his sorrys. Blahblahblah. I was mad at my best friend at the time because she hung out with him on this day. I got to admit though, this guy.. Even though I’d never think a guy would get in the way of my friendships it did. It’s never going to be the same between me and my friend.. Days passed and I don’t know what day it happened on, so I’ll just write in in the same blog. Me and this guy hung out and he said he still liked me and what not but he’s not going to do anything about it. Yeah, I know mixed signals much. So I got all happy again just to be disappointed.. We just never worked. He ended up with my best friend. Yeah it’s weird and people might think it’s “fucked up”. But, honestly at this point in my life. I don’t care about their relationship anymore. I learned I could do way better than him and I deserve much more. I’m happy for them two and may they be happy together..
