June 16, 2010
Today was the day. My first date with him. Double date actually. I remember worrying about what I was going to wear. Was it good enough. Was it cute. I’ve never been on a date before. I was really nervous and for some reason my stomach is going in knots just writing about this. I went to my friends house because she was giving the ride there. All the while, when she was getting ready, all I could think about was, what was going to happen. I mean, I really liked this guy. And I guess I was infatuated with the fact that this guy may actually like me back.
First date - Bowling at Strikes. On our way there, my heart was beating so fast. My hands were getting all clammy and I couldn’t stop shaking. I was that nervous. When we got there, we went to the arcade and I saw him. Playing that basketball game with his friend. I quickly ran towards the bathroom. Babbling stuff like “oh my gosh”, “I’m actually here”, “He’s actually here..” I texted him we were here, yet me and my friend, or well I was hiding where the race car games were at. She just had to yell my name out so his friend heard and I ran to the bathroom. Yeah, I’m a dork. Go ahead and laugh. Someone knocked at the bathroom stall. I thought it was my friend but when I opened it, it was him. I remember his smile and how it made my heart just stop right then and there. We said our “hi’s” and hugged. I loved the way he smelled. Going out of the bathroom he turned around and said, “Someone is looking cute today.” I was happy dancing in my head.
I should’ve been less shy. Now that I think about it. I remember I was just so awkward. I remember looking at your phone and I went to your inbox and it was just full of my name. I remember when you pulled my chair to sit next to you, but I moved it back. I remember you beating me at bowling. I remember you playing with my hands when I teased you and didn’t let you hold them. I remember you always calling me a mean name and I’d call you one back. I remember..
I remember me and you sitting at that one race car game. I remember you put your arm around my shoulder as we just sat and talked there. I remember walking to the park. I remember the moment where we sat at that bench and you asked, “Will you be my girlfriend?” I remember jokingly saying no but then I said, “Of course I will”. I remember you gave me my first real kiss. I remember walking back with you, holding hands. I remember everything. Every little thing.
That day, those moments. You were my number 1. And it makes me cry just thinking about it.
June 16 could have been our 1 year anniversary.
